Inspiration!!!

I realize as each day goes astray
Fate has taken me from her away
It may be because I am all work and no play
Or I really wonder was I slightly delayed
She is my most treasured maiden
Her loss makes me stress-laden
Her voice and words are golden
She is the mistress of my love’s garden
The more time I spend and dither
Binds me together in her memories like tethers
My efforts and passion are devout
May be my emotions I need to surmount
Will I be fitting for her and tantamount
In love and relationships, I aint a connoisseur
Right now, I am just a desolate and desperate monsieur
The more I suppress and my heart goes calm
In a matter of time, it needs to be embalmed
Though my mind is supple and emotionally lurch
The very thought of her gives me the ephemeral surge
Most part of my life I have spent in solitude
If you are there, it refines my attitude and redefines my altitude
You are the perfect one who is cute and astute
However adroit I was, now you’re making me a doit
Your presence and essence targets me relentless
All the after effects and your memories are merciless
Once my mind was stern, sturdy and steady
You have made it flaccid with your love’s acid
I was once a ruthless soldier
Now, my mind squanders, my heart meanders and my body merely wanders
My life just seems to be bereft
As each second passes, it just goes adrift
I always try to open up my heart
But girl! Don’t you pierce it with your dart
The more I get closer, it gets that much tougher
I may end up a loser and continue to suffer

Nowadays, I am getting into a shell
Locking all my emotions where my heart feels like hell
I am wantonly avoiding, ‘cos ultimately I will be devoid
I am resisting to converse, as I may end up an inverse
I am even hiding myself and afraid to look, not that I am a crook
I envisage, one fine day, your absence will make me sick

Why am I acting so weird
My life is getting very tired
I aspire to become your better half
Don’t you leave me in despair and make others laugh
I wish things were so simple
I had TIME that was ample and reactions nimble
I only WISH….
You were born after me in a location and tradition closer to mine
But the harsh reality is making my vision saline
I only WISH….
I had the right opportunity to meet her much earlier
Before someone would have grabbed and made her dearer

All I ever wanted was to get you and be your beau
Right now, things are so messed up, I have no clue
I wish the REBIRTH theory comes true
With all my terms and conditions, applied and replied
And all my wish-list becoming a reality
Ultimately, both of us sharing our lives for ETERNITY!!!

VENKY 08/06/11