OH! LOVELY MOON

Oh Lovely Moon!!! For the past few days, I am seeing your glorious appearance in the midnight sky…
As I travel along, I sense that I am getting closer and closer to you…
But the size of your image never gets changed and the more I come closer to you, the clearer it hits my mind this reality. I even changed directions and saw you disappearing a few times, but it was only my illusion of conception. You again came back with the same magnificence.
Dear Moon, I learnt a few important lessons from you:
1. You are never bothered or perturbed by others looking at you.
2. You are always equipoised in your temperament
3. You magnify and diminish every fortnight, yet aware of this reality and carry on with your life. These may be your limitations, but you’ve understood them clearly and you progress!!!

Never ever thought that looking at the mundane process of MOON will make me realize something so abstruse yet elementary!!!

AU REVOIR "SUNIL"

You were not just our MANAGER
Also a great and inspiring MENTOR
I look back at the past few days
Where work was made exciting everyday
You always expected more from us
And every time gave us new challenges
You wanted us to step out of our comfort ZONE
And gave us exposure for our skills to HONE!

We've shared lots of memorable moments
You gave us your frank and outspoken comments
You're always straight-forward
Be it a scorn or an applaud!

You deserve commendable accolades for our TEAM's inception
We did have a nice and warm reception
All those team outings vivid in our memories
Time has flew past like a pleasant reverie

We've developed lots of trust and great rapport
We sincerely thank you for all your support
Wishing you all the very best for future endeavours
You are ONE special person for all of us to remember!!!

With Luv and respect...
Dedicated to my boss :-)

Inspiration!!!

I realize as each day goes astray
Fate has taken me from her away
It may be because I am all work and no play
Or I really wonder was I slightly delayed
She is my most treasured maiden
Her loss makes me stress-laden
Her voice and words are golden
She is the mistress of my love’s garden
The more time I spend and dither
Binds me together in her memories like tethers
My efforts and passion are devout
May be my emotions I need to surmount
Will I be fitting for her and tantamount
In love and relationships, I aint a connoisseur
Right now, I am just a desolate and desperate monsieur
The more I suppress and my heart goes calm
In a matter of time, it needs to be embalmed
Though my mind is supple and emotionally lurch
The very thought of her gives me the ephemeral surge
Most part of my life I have spent in solitude
If you are there, it refines my attitude and redefines my altitude
You are the perfect one who is cute and astute
However adroit I was, now you’re making me a doit
Your presence and essence targets me relentless
All the after effects and your memories are merciless
Once my mind was stern, sturdy and steady
You have made it flaccid with your love’s acid
I was once a ruthless soldier
Now, my mind squanders, my heart meanders and my body merely wanders
My life just seems to be bereft
As each second passes, it just goes adrift
I always try to open up my heart
But girl! Don’t you pierce it with your dart
The more I get closer, it gets that much tougher
I may end up a loser and continue to suffer

Nowadays, I am getting into a shell
Locking all my emotions where my heart feels like hell
I am wantonly avoiding, ‘cos ultimately I will be devoid
I am resisting to converse, as I may end up an inverse
I am even hiding myself and afraid to look, not that I am a crook
I envisage, one fine day, your absence will make me sick

Why am I acting so weird
My life is getting very tired
I aspire to become your better half
Don’t you leave me in despair and make others laugh
I wish things were so simple
I had TIME that was ample and reactions nimble
I only WISH….
You were born after me in a location and tradition closer to mine
But the harsh reality is making my vision saline
I only WISH….
I had the right opportunity to meet her much earlier
Before someone would have grabbed and made her dearer

All I ever wanted was to get you and be your beau
Right now, things are so messed up, I have no clue
I wish the REBIRTH theory comes true
With all my terms and conditions, applied and replied
And all my wish-list becoming a reality
Ultimately, both of us sharing our lives for ETERNITY!!!

VENKY 08/06/11

My newest inspiration

She is a superstar
Hope our relationship goes far
With her vocabulary and diction
She gives me the eternal addiction
And her eloquence and accent
Makes for a bond sacrosanct
Why have I become so silent and impatient
Is it the insecure feeling of she having someone else?
I can only wonder in my sweetest dreams
A world filled by the both of us
We touch, cuddle, snuggle, care and kiss
Time seems to come to a standstill
If only she were mine
If only I had the guts to ask her to be mine
Until then, I will only be dreaming
Imagining she is with me

She looks so mature
I can see the brighter side of our future
She is so decent
Makes my time with her pleasant
I know I miss her a lot
But I can't understand God's ways and His plots
Will she be mine?
Else, I'll turn saline
Her name and thoughts brings me cheer
Time and destiny is all what I fear
It is now just a matter of time
Whether I win her over
OR Brood over her loss!!!!!

Reminiscences

It is amazing how our memory fades away with time. There are many things that over the past year 2010 I have forgotten, some good ones and some bad too. But, what does all this say to me? 2010 was a great year for me, especially the later part in which lots of unexpected things appeared.

First is my job change. After the recession, actually I did not know when recession actually got over. Just when I saw many people started migrating elsewhere, I could figure out that the market was wide open. As people left, extra burden fell in to my head. I started out temporarily doing many odd jobs, only solace being they were temporary. Slowly, I got a feeling that I was unscrupulously exploited by thankless souls. Then when work life balance went for a toss, it was time to hang in the boots. I also seriously despise people who complain that what personal life a bachelor needs to have, for youth is to enjoy and make yourself ready for the responsibilities of the future. I can still remember that desperate moment of 2nd shift, exactly midnight, at that odd hour, I updated my resume after 3 years and posted it into a job portal. I can still vividly remember those depressive moments: mockery from operators, dominance of highly political peers, don't care save your skin Bosses, slogging out like an ass even on Sundays and letting others happily elevate over your hard work due to timidity, eating at odd hours, sleeping during even odd hours, my whole life seemed like a big question mark then. But, it did make me a bit stronger.

As unexpected, I got calls from consultancies. I had a telephonic interview. Then, a face to face with my prospective manager. Then, I was called for a Videoconferencing. Finally, I came out with the job. I earnestly thank GOD for somehow gave me time and created opportunities for me to land here.

I really understood the true nature of people only when I resigned. All those nice words and smiles suddenly turned alien. The day I submitted my resignation to my boss, he took it either too easy or was in a SHOCK. I certainly did prove critics wrong by what I did. I had to wait for almost a month and shell out an exorbitant sum of 3 months of my gross salary to get relieved from current employer. Whoever has laid out such a rule must be castrated in public! It seemed uncertain even after paying such a huge amount - my blood, sweat and tears! People thought that I am big joke and in order to escape, trying to lie my way out, but that was not the case to be. The only takeaways for me were a few good friends, some learning and experience, lots of contacts, a heavy dosage of do's and don'ts, a few bitter and sweet experiences and what not!

Finally, I had to revolt against my boss for the 1st and last time to get things done. Voila! I was relieved the same moment!

One great learning was to never get emotional, sentimental, close or goodie goodie in work. Being honest, ethical, outspoken, good nature and blah blah works awesome on paper, but on practice will make you a LOSER. I am not propagating non adherence of these values, rather to take a conscious call between cheating and getting cheated. That's corporate life for you in pure and simple ENGLISH. You have to either get cheated or make one!

I will continue this post next time. Till then I leave you folks with a good line I read today:

Opportunities never get missed, they are taken by someone else...

MEMORIES

I just have those memories

Trying to suppress and reconcile my heart's robbery

I am at an unexplainable loss

Life has become like a mirror without gloss

It was fun with her

Now, life looks bleak and blur

Not that I was bad

Of her, may be so mad

Still the memories keep me moving

The break up makes my heart mowing

Something between us was so special

Body, Mind and Soul: so sensual

Somewhere something went wrong

Now, it's been ages since we spoke for long

Whatever, Life moves on

Those episodes right now gone

TIME heals our past

My LIFE's sail without a mast

These compromises and sacrifices

My promises and practices

Keep on coming and going

Words keep fumbling and mumbling

But the bottom line is...

May be she is pissed

I have lost her

Separated from my lovely dear

And now I have been left to murmur

Wounds and memories, my only armour

I have lost her, but not her memories

Her care, hair and lovely allotropies

Those special moments of chatting

Those anxious moments of waiting

Those lovely moments of texting

Those cute moments of her thinking

But, my mind is at crossroads

My heart has got an emotional overload

For should I let those memories fade

She sparkled and was gorgeous like a jade

Still, she is so special

Not so social

She's my cute girl

Her thoughts brings those locked up tears unfurled

Longing to hear her soft voice

Her gait and pose and poise

The way she whispers my name

Shuts off my brain and makes me lame

Her emotional email

And a few childish blackmails

May be she found someone better

But the very thought of it makes me bitter

Whatever it is, I regret her loss

Whomsoever's may have been the flaws

She is the one who drove me crazy

Who made my life a melange of sweet frenzy

Now can't reach her mobile

My heart's crushed and in rubbles

My number has been blocked

After all those love locks

No response from social networking

After all those loving and cuddling

Not a single word for my emails

May be she thought I got another female

Oh! My cutie pie

You have endured all my lovely lies

It's difficult to come to terms with reality

All my life, thought love was a frivolity

For that, I am paying a huge price

My ego and heart have shrunk in size

Alas! Waiting for your kind word

Atleast before the flight of this longing bird

From this sad world!

--------------- Venky: 10/11/2010

My Native Visit

This post has been waiting and waiting for a long time. I wanted to write about my visit to my native - roots to be exact in the 1st week of August right after the visit with lingering fresh memories. My parents and myself started from Coimbatore to Thirunelveli. The bus journey was a tiresome one, with the bus taking a long time even to cross Coimbatore city border, thanks to the ruling party's campaign, blocking all important arterial roads and flooding paid people to infest the blockade.

The next day after the overnight journey we reached Thirunelveli at last. The Bus stopped in the new bus stand which was close to Palayamkottai - the twin city of Thirunelveli, popularly known as Nellai. The place is poorly developed with not even a single lodge or standard hotel where travelers can rest and plan their stay ahead. We had to board another local bus to reach the city bus stand. Then, we lodged at a nice hotel named BHARANI HOTELS - the one which we visited along with my sister twelve years back. We freshened up and visited the NELLAIPPAR temple in the morning. Whatta temple, how ancient it is, how vast and huge it is, can in fact imagine and visualize an entire village housed and functioning efficiently inside, what amazing sculptures, it was totally awesome!!!

We came to our room, then took some rest and visited our Family God( Kula Deivam) which is Karungulam Sri Venkatachalapathy temple. It was truly an enchanting and peaceful experience. Then we returned and checked out of the hotel and the same night boarded our respective buses. One of the most important and endearing things that happened to me during this visit was the trust and bonding that happened between me and my dad. Some feelings can't be put in words or blog, rather they can only be felt, so it's something like that! I thank God for all that has given me and wanted to start my new job with a good note and what better way to start than visiting temples and attaining internal peace and HIS blessings!!!

Poem

Funny Oxymorons

Bloggers, got this SMS about oxymorons. Worth the share! Enjoy!!!

• Clearly Misunderstood
• Exact Estimate
• Small Crowd
• Act Natural
• Found Missing
• Fully Empty
• Original Copy

And the most hilarious: Happily Married

CHANGE - Come to me soon!!!

What am I doing here
Pressure from the ones dear and near
My mind is so unclear
Troubled by future's fear

I have hit a quarter century

Amidst frustations and fury

Yet another victim of our reservation policy

For our ancestral fallacy

Tired of being single and fickle
Missing my ma's curd rice and mango pickle
Nostalgic moments kindling a tingle
What am I to do in this jungle?

Mind's preoccupied with MS, MBA and M Tech
Is there nothing else left to regain our lives
Nothing new that the spirits get revived
Oh God! How am I going to survive

May be I am thinking too much
At the end of the day, all I do is punch and lunch
Slowly turning out slouch
Stuck to a PC and a couch

I only end up having dreams
During the act, I always scream
Ending up last in my team
CHANGE - Come to me soon!